estoy siendo re clara

warm embrace
腦袋缺氧，一直想睡。昨晚和pinti聊過之後，很多感覺又跑回來。然後腦袋又開始一直轉呀轉呀轉。還夢見和奈良美智先生一起四處走動說話。夢中不斷出現的關鍵句子是少女情懷。不過不是在說我。分手後的世界是很可怕的。你過著我不知道的生活。我過著你不想知道的生活。兩個人從此變成陌生人。今天情緒又變得很低。我好想從這一切逃開。到一個不會因為想起了你就開始心隱隱作痛的地方去。我不豁達。我也不振作。我只是在假裝自己能夠堅強的面對，騙著自己。這個謊，這個謊會不會有成真的一天。pinti說她要浮出水面呼吸了。我說可不可以就讓我淹死在水裡不要再醒過來了。


lack of oxygen in my brain, feel sleepy all the time. after spoke with pinti last night, so many feelings running back to me again. and then my brain starting to run and run and run again. i even dreamed of yoshitomo nara san walking around and talking with me. the world after broke up is very awful. you're living a life i don't know. i'm living a life you don't want to know. we are now become two strangers forever. i'm in a very low mood today. i really want to run away from all these, to a place that my heart won't start aching everytime when i think of you. i'm not open-minded. i'm not cheer up either. i'm just pretending i'm tough enough to face all these, and lying to myself. this lie, will this lie come true one day ? pinti said she's gonna float out of the water and breath. i said, can i just drown in the water and never wake up again.


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